All for one and One for all
I’ve lived and I’ve learned and I’ve loved. There is only so much that someone can take. I thought Eric was the one I really did but now knowing he “used me for the past 3 months” and that “I was getting too big for him anyways” it really opened my eyes to see straight through him. See that I’ll find someone worth my time and my love. Whether its 3 months from now or 3 years, I’ll find it and I’ll have it. Right now I need to do me, focus on what I want and make all the right decisions. I need to grow up more to where I’ll be ok hundreds of miles away. I have the greatest friends I could ever want and my family is absolutly amazing. My parents are my best friends. They’re so proud of me and what I have accomplished. By myself with no one there to help. I love the ones who get me up when I am down and those who care even when they don’t have to. I was naive about Eric, he was never “the one”. I always asked God to send me a sign. And even though it wasn’t ideal, he finally did and I thank him for that. I am happy and thankful for everything I have in my life. I’m a strong girl who can get through anything. I have faith and hope everything will be alright even if it hurts at the time. I’m moving forward, I’m moving on. I’ll be something big one day, watch me.
I was so happy with life. So happy with the future, so much to look forward to…until I wasn’t good enough. Shittiest feeling, I want to go back. I want my happy life back.
With or without you, I will be ok! I’m strong. I know that in the end, who really matters will be there for me. You do you’re own thing and I’ll do mine. You’re not even worth a tear, a thought, or a regret. Moving forward with those who care feels great. I am in a happy place, a peaceful place.
Everyones has their highs and lows, their ups and downs, their achievements and disappointments. Trust me I have had my fair share of all of them. Recently, Ive been having a hard time being in more of the up, high, achievement catagory. Seems to me like Im always on the down side. With “almost being in a relationship: things can get really hard. Its easier to be hurt because you know you’re not officially attached to anything goes. Its hard knowing the person youve been with since you were 15 can “love” you but not want to commit and actually be with you. It’s tough, but for whatever the reason it hasn’t once changed my mind on where I stand. However, some times it is hard to feel good enough. I don’t care if you’re madly in love, head over heels, everyone gets that feeling. and boy does it suck. I don’t know why, but for some reason I do get that feelings even though deep down I know I am. I don’t know whats wrong with me, but it really does bother me. As far as friends go, yeah they’re great, but there is always that ONE best friend. Ya know, that everyone has? Yeah…..about that….things change. People change and friendships fade. I am so happy for you if you have that best friend that does everything with you that asks you to hangout or calls you when you’re upset. I am, because knowing you have someone like that rocks…..but THINKING you have someone like that just flat out sucks. BIG TIME. So I guess sorry for all my negative comments but right now thats pretty much all i have to say :/ sorry. hopefully things get better in time. ill keep you updated, promise!
Merry Christmas to all and all a good night! Tomorrow is my last Christmas of me living in this house, and I cant believe how time flies. I am so thankful for the family I have to celebrate this wonderful holiday with. I am truly blessed.
(Source: foodspotting)
